I am feeling pretty depressed today. I get like this at the end of every cycle when I get to see those stark white bfn's. It probably doesn't help that I am coming down with my first autumn cold and work has been utterly boring which leads to LONG days to think and stare at the calender and wish my life away!!!
It's on days like today that I wonder why we even try. I have much hope at the beginning of a cycle. Excitement about O'ing and being able to catch the right timing. By the end with another bfn under the belt I am depressed and grouchy. Maybe we'll never have another child. I am sick and tired of wasting my time on these treatments that should work (especially now with DH's improved fertility) and getting no results.
I am sick and tired of having to see pregnant woman and new babies...even to read about it. Unfortunately for me it's everywhere....I can't get away from it.
I am angry that we even have to consider ivf. Angry that it costs so much and angry that it too could be a waste of time and money....just like the last 15 months of cycles have been.
Oh yeah when I am depressed I want to eat....fabulous.
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