A more indepth post

First I'll start with a few more pictures.

16dpo frer

17dpo IC on the bottom

There will be no more FRER and only 2 IC's left.  I did buy 2 clearblue digi's. I'll take one tomorrow hopefully it reads 2-3 then I will take the next one they day I go for my next beta.  Hopefully it will read 3+ by then.....my way of preparing myself for the beta update phone call.

Now onto the real update.  I am grateful that I got this bfp, still feeling a little in shock and awe and just waiting for that shoe to drop so to speak.  I definitely have that desire to have another little one.  But before I got this bfp I just really figured it wasn't going to happen for us.  I was making steps to move forward....finally after 2 years 4 months 2 weeks and 3 days after my world came crashing down.

12.5 lbs away from my weight loss goal, I gave the gym a void chq for automatic withdrawals for my membership, personal trainer (3 sessions left) I started my psych course with real hope that I could start nursing school in Jan 2013.  I finally got the courage to start making these changes and God figured he would throw me for a loop.  I wish life could be so much clearer....it would be so helpful.

I want to reiterate that I am grateful for the bfp....just that sometimes the timing seems so off.

I've been having mild nausea, bbs are quite sore, occasional cramping.  No spotting.  Taking everything day by day.  I mentioned about about my 3 remaining training sessions.  I figure I am ok to exercise lightly in the first trimester?  I  emailed the trainer about maybe making some adjustments for me (low impact cardio) so that I can finish out my paid for sessions.  I wonder what he will say.