Being back at work has been ok. Over the summer it was quite exhausting as I was covering some part of someone else's duties up untIl last week, and now I am off this week. I don't mind being at work but I really want to be more involved with the kids. Of course it's not even possible for me to be a sahm or even a pt sahm.
B is doing ok. He finished up grade one and has been enjoying summer, hanging out with the grandparents and doing summer camps. He loves to keep busy. This summer he has started seeing a play therapist and finally just a few weeks ago got into see the physician at the learning and development clinic. He has been officially dx with a d h d and a learning disorder. His iq is overall quite good, above average but when it's broken down into the four categories there is a wide gap between the two higher and two lower. So while he is a smart kid he really has trouble getting the pencil to paper as the doctor said. We have decided for now to keep him in regular program v. The behaviour and learning program, he will share an aid and have an IPP. The hope is with medication his ability to focus and learn will improve. He has started on a low dose of a stimulant, the only difference I notice at the moment is that his appetite has decrease and he is more moody. While b is a good sized kid he's lost over 2 lbs in less than three week and that is concerning. I am a bit worried about the upcoming school year, I pray for a good and experienced teacher.
C is well also. Our package for the adoption has been submitted I believe so now we wait. Our official decree will come by mail. C is doing well with her Dayhome. We are starting to potty train, she is able to do pee pee with direction to go sit on the potty but that is as far as she's gotten. She is still quite whiny and moody and definately a daddy's girl. I admit the whiny attitude reall makes bonding difficult and it's so different from B's bubbly demeanor.
Dh and I are ok. We embarked on a major reno this summer, we are nearing the end but it was exhausting expensive and I am glad to be nearing the end of it. I have been taking fem ara for the past few cycles but I don't think my hearts into it. Yes I would still love to have a pregnany and baby but the practical side is taking over, I'm nearing my 35th, so over the toddler stage, and then of course the cost....not to mention I have a lot on my plate at the moment. I always feel that sting when I see pregnant women and new babies, I don't know if that will ever go away.
I am still taking my a&p course, I will be done on oct 25 then I will wait till prob jan before I take the last pre requisite. Even if I never make it to nursing school at least I know I can if the opportunity becomes available.
My dad was recently diagnosed with multiple mye.loma which is a form of blood cancer. It is not quite as serious as say leukemia but never the less has definately caused some anxiety, fear, and sadness. My dad will be 75 this year so age isn't on his side but his doctor feels there is a good chance for remission, his bones have severely eroded because of this cancer and that is a concern but he will begin a medication regime for now. He has also agreed to be a part of a clinical trial.
I am sure I am forgetting something but that's all I can come up with for now. I'm generally feeling a bit depressed and waiting for better days but sometimes it feels like better days will never come.
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