It is well...........

I feel simply exhausted. I had to cover the reception desk 4 of 5 days this week. Doing that along with my own work plus a run -in with a certain co-worker...it just sucks.

Our receptionist has not been wonderfully reliable as in she has taken more sick days than what she has to take. But apparently she is the best of the 7-8 the office went through while I was on mat leave.....so in other words we would like her to stay....well I know I would because I end up covering.

I like K she seems to be a nice person. We have talked about stuff including ttc. My boss confided in me that K was pregnant and now having a miscarriage. My boss has never btdt has not been pregnant or has any children. She didn't really know how to relate. She figured I might have some experience seeing I have a child. Well I have btdt it actually brings back a lot of memories of that time.

How upset I was, how I wanted people to know so that they could understand but knowing that people who have not btdt just don't "get it." Even my mom gave me one of the one liners you should never tell anyone that just had a m/c.

I do hope K is feeling better at least physically...I know emotionally it takes some time.

Last week I downloaded a song off of Itunes "Well With My Soul" it is a remake of that old hymn "It Is Well With My Soul." I remember way back only a few weeks after Brennan was born the three of us were at church and the Pastor speaking that day told the story of how that hymn came to be. Well me and my post-partum blues completely lost it. I usually hate to cry in front of others but I couldn't keep it in. The story was so freaking sad. Well I really like this new version. But the message is the same...Whatever my lot, you have taught me to know, it is well, it is well with my soul. If Horatio Spafford can "let go" and give it to Him then I know I can too.

Ok I didn't post about my appointment with DR M that is because it didn't happen! I had a call on my home machine on Jan 6 saying he had to go out of town unexpectedly and they needed to post-pone my appointment. No big deal just short notice. It was kind of bad timing with the merge at work anyways. I have been rebooked for this coming Tuesday.

My sister and bil are about to get a new foster baby. This one is pretty brand new. The DR figures she was 4-6 weeks premature and is still in nicu as a grower feeder. The one difference with this baby and the others my sis and bil have adopted/fostered is that is baby was NOT exposed to alcohol or drugs during the pregnancy!!! One thing this baby will NOT have to deal with. Anyways the baby is expected to be discharged this coming week.

I really don't know how my sister manages......that is a lot of kids!