It's amazing how it just comes over me, suddenly after being completely fine. I am feeling quite grouchy and down today. I woke up fine but then everything from not ovulating yet, to hearing happy updates (weddings and pregnancies). It really turned my mood inward, feeling sorry for myself. I have yet to change out of my jammies and I just ate a plate of nacho's. Nacho's with a "new recipe" salsa which sucked. Needless to say the nacho's did not have the cheer me up effect I was looking for although I guess food really shouldn't be responsible for cheering up. I guess that's why I need to be on ww.
Last night I dug out a bunch of CD's with pictures and video of Brennan from his birth onward we all watched them together. It's been quite some time since I've seen them. He was so cute (well he still is). The yearning for another baby is still very strong. Brennan's infancy went by so fast and I really didn't appreciate it as much as I could have. I'll call it first time mom syndrome. Now he is a very busy pre-schooler ready to head off to pre-k in about a months time.
At the end of this month it will be 2 years since Gavin's conception. 2 very long and trying years. I absolutely never once thought we would get to this point and still be ttc.....never...now we are facing the possibility of IVF or nothing.
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