08/06/12

Today has not been a great day. It's not like anything particularly bad happened....just more of the same. At work today I found out two more people are pregnant. It seems like we just got rid of a bunch, now there are more. Then my co-worker says its not official yet for so and so but she's in the "safe zone" now. Safe zone? Really? For me the safe zone is mythical. Of course I am 99.9% sure both of these people will have healthy babies. Ran into an acquaintance at the train. She and I had our first (she had twins) around the same time and both used the clinic. They knew they were done after the girls....and me 5 years later still stuck in this living hell of infertility and loss. Then I was off to the lab for another hcg draw. Should be zero this time yeah me for miscarrying so well. Gotta love sitting their waiting to be unpregnant with two heavily pregnant ladies doing their gtt. My new pee sticks arrived in the mail today.....complete self torture..... My life and blog tends to repeat itself....mostly all downer posts....and if I do get a happy or hopefully one that usually turns around pretty quick. I am so tired...... Tonight I just want to be alone......