I know I know I am a total slacker. My life isn't really that interesting and sometimes I feel like a stuck record.
Af finally showed her face today on cd 47, what a waste of time. I did take the prometrium and believe I ovulated at some point because it took a long time for her to get here after the last pill and my temps stayed elevated up to yesterday. I guess I will get a nuva ring and take a few weeks off. I see dr m on the 29th I will ask about upping my letrozole dose then.
Work has been crazy busy my co-worker is off after having a breast reduction surgery. I hope she is able to come back as scheduled as my supervisor is going away that same week.
I've been reading my English text and I finally have an assigned tutor. I am a bit nervous I am just not a great writer and my grammar is poor. Class officially starts Dec 1. Trying to get a head start.
We've been talking about the idea of adopting. Ideally we could adopt the baby girl my sister is currently fostering. We still would have to do the application process etc which could possibly be expedited as we are interested in an available child but it's hard to say and there of course there is no guarantee we would even get her. I was daydreaming today about having 2 carseats in the car, and the crib set up in the spare room. I do still want to be pregnant but I have to draw the time line and treatment line somewhere. It all leaves me very conflicted.
On Saturday I awoke and checked fb and the very first post in my newsfeed was a preggo announcement. This couple was married in July and due in May. Obviously got pregnant easily and due the same month I was due with G. Well that set the tone for my day. I watched my montages, cleaned out drawers and found the name list we made when pregnant with G then continued the sappy day by watching episodes of Greys and PP that involved baby loss. I did it so I could cry and not be the only one. Strange to find comfort in crying with fictional characters?...probably.
My 33rd b-day is coming up. Where did the last 10 years go?!?!
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