The countdown is on and down to single digits

I've been meaning to write a post but just never seem to get around to it.  It is now 8am on Monday morning and it is spring break.  I am officially finished with my parental leave and am taking a week unpaid because of course B is off school this week.  Back to work a week from today. Mostly, I am sad that I have to go back, but i can think of a couple positives. So the last few weeks I have been very busy studying.  I have my second midterm booked for April 12 and I managed to get through all the reading and the assignment pretty quick and now I am just trying to remember everything, not an easy feat.  But I have set myself up to have 6 months to complete the final third of the course so not too much pressure as I head back to ft work.

I saw an annoying post on fb the other day about mom's choosing to be with your kids over choosing to work outside the home.  Some of us just don't get to choose.  I have to work otherwise the bills won't get paid.  Sure we could send dh out to the fields for weeks at a time and make a boat load of $$ but then he wouldn't get to spend much time at all home. I would essentially be a single mom for 3 out of 4 weeks.  I really don't see how that is any better than two working parents.  Anyhow, I didn't like that.  It's not a choice for me, it's a necessity.

Like I said B is on spring break this week.  Miss C is in Dayhome and starting ft tomorrow (pt today) I have plans to spend time doing things with B that I couldn't do with both....like go to the rec centre pool!  He's been having some difficulty with his reading, writing and behaviour at school.  He isn't intentionally doing wrong but he can be very stubborn, and doesn't always listen.  He will be doing his psych-ed assessments in May.  I am really hoping that this testing results in strategies or a plan to help him succeed.....regardless of a specific diagnosis.  He is still very attached to me and is supposed to see a therapist through one of the school aged neurodevelmopmental clinics.  Same thing I hope for some strategies regarding the attachment (wanting to sleep in my bed) and to help with his fears/anxieties about my dying.  I try to remember that he's been through a lot too with losing G and adding a new sibling....but sometimes I do get very frustrated.  He had a sleep over at my parents last weekend and my mom ended up sleeping with him because he can't sleep on his own.....at least now she knows what I am dealing with here every night.

As for miss C she has been doing pt Dayhome every Monday and Friday for the month of March.  She seems to be doing ok but does make a fuss about going.  Tomorrow she starts ft yikes.  Her whining has improoved for the most part but this weekend was a bit of a setback I guess.  Partly due to her stubborn toddler wants and her attempting to manipulate daddy....we had a few melt downs the last two days.  It may sound bad but I am trying to just let dh deal with it.  For the most part with me she knows that I don't put up with the whiny nonsense.....but dh is more of a softy and she knows it.  Last night she did get put to bed by dh early because of the whiny's, I did end up having to put her back to bed because she just cries when dh puts her to bed.  

What else....dh and I have been meeting with a financial planner.....boy so much I didn't know about investing and insurance.  Our meetings have sure been eye opening.  So we've been making some changes to our insurance and investments.  We aren't rich by any means but I still want to make the most of my investments (at least gain with the rate of inflation) and I don't want to be putting our more in insurance than I have too.  So between all the changes we should be able to save 2-3 hundred a month.  It may not seem like much but when I look at it and see how much has been wasted on various little insurance life policies and a pricier auto policy it makes me sick....like I said we aren't rich and spending all that money uneccesarily really bugs me.

In ttc news I have filled my rx for fem.ara but I don't really know that I want to take it.  I wanted a baby 4 years ago.  Now that we have one in school and one hopefully heading out of babyhood soon I am not so sure I want to start over.  Yet I am also not sure that I won't regret not trying for the last few months before my 35 bday cut off. My sister is getting a new foster baby.  I got to visit her in the nicu last week....she is sweet, poor little one born at term but addicted to a plethora of crap including cocaine and barbiturates....I had no real urges to have a baby while with her....although I saw several tiny preemies in their incubators and could to help but think my little G was only a bit smaller and only a few weeks away from making it to the nicu....and that made me a little sad.

Well it's now 8:46 and mr B is still snoozing!  Time to get up and start the day.