I have much to remember and celebrate on October 15. On this day I celebrate the birthday of my dear Father. He is 72 today and I am so very happy that he is my Dad and that he is still here with us. Of course as every BLM knows October 15 is also pregnancy and infant loss awareness day. Normally a sombre event this year is even more sad. October 15 was my EDD for the pregnancy I lost in March. When I first learned of that EDD I had mixed emotions. Dad's birthday but also this day of remembrance. But I knew had I gone to term it would not be "the day." But right now today it's a reminder that I "should" have a warm newborn right now. It would have been such a blessing....especially on a day like today.
I want to pay special respects to all my little ones lost. This blog is mostly about Gavin but they are important and missed.
Baby/Pregnancy Number 1 whom we called "Drew" lost November 9, 2006.
Baby/Pregnancy Number 3 lost March 2009 -Chemical Pregnancy
Baby/Pregnancy Number 4 My Dearest Gavin Born and Died January 9, 2010
Baby/Pregnancy Number 5 lost March 17, 2011
I will be lighting my candles tonight at 7pm. One for each of my babies, last year I lit three this year it will be four.
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I hope lighting your candles and remembering all your babies brought you some peace last night. Thinking of you.
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