I had a terribly bad dream this morning. I don`t recall every detail but I do know that I had just lost another baby, it was around 18 weeks gestation. I was in the lab trying to find out if I had an infection this time too.
I know dreams are not predictive of the future, but they can sure say a lot about what is going on in my head. If I ever get pregnant again...I will be fearful of losing the baby, I don`t think there is anyway to not have that fear. I also know from research that if I do have CI it tends to pronounce itself earlier with each pregnancy and I am concerned about missing the signs if not checked early enough. The infection part....well if there is no infection then the doctor`s can`t put the PTB blame on that. I am afraid that I will be in the situation of having to prove with another loss that I do have CI.
I see it all the time on the CI boards. Had to have multiple PTB`s before they would diagnose me.....sigh...
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