I seem to say that to myself quite often. That would be nice if I got a bfp this cycle, that would be nice if I didn't have to go back to the clinic, that would be nice to have a summer due date, it goes on and on. Maybe I am setting myself up for the likely letdown. Don't get too excited and the fall won't be so bad.
In the 2ww now. Not much longer before we are back cycling with the clinic. I would love to be pregnant this cycle but realistically....I am preparing myself for treatment cycles. I am apprehensive. I thought this would work well and quickly for us but having two cycles canceled has rocked my confidence....and further dampened my already damp spirit.
I am trying to do my best to find some enthusiasm for B's 3rd birthday party. It hasn't been easy. I really want to make his day special, but motivation is lacking. I feel terrible about that.
I was thinking today about my two birth experiences. Even after all I went through with Gavin I am still bitter over what happened at B's birth, maybe even more so now. A disappointing experience that may have well had a part in the tragedy of my second birth.
It would be nice to have a glimpse into the future. It would be nice to see a happy me.
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I think the same things all of the time too..."That would be nice"...nice to be pregnant, nice to have a living baby in my arms, etc...
Good luck in the 2ww, I know it can be brutal. I will be thinking of you!
It really would be nice...and I will hope for good things ahead for you. Take care and be gentle with your heart.
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