Appointment Update

Well the appointment with the RE went ok.  Not exactly like I had hoped but I kind of expected that my time frame really wouldn't fit his "schedule."

First we talked about how I was doing.  Physically I am fine no concerns there.  Dr M asked who I was talking to.  Well I did try the bereavement counselor before but I didn't think it was of much use at the time.  That all I did was cry and that there are no answers for me.  What can they tell me to make me feel better?  Not sure.  I did tell him I blog and he thought that was great to "journal" my feelings and that perhaps writing them out would be a start to being able to talk with someone.

So the pathology of the POC came back "normal"  all this means is that the pregnancy was not a molar or cancerous.  The real results the karyotyping  will take at least another 6 MONTHS to get back.

After going over various things this is the plan that he presented to me:

A SIS after my next AF
Karyotyping of both DH and I
Autoimmune testing for me (this needs to be done 6 weeks after hcg is <5) (I did the same tests post Gavin and they came back normal not sure why we are repeating)

He suggested that we wait the six months to get our karyotyping back before proceeding.  He wants to know how to "fix us" first.  But the decision is ours (mine).  I do not choose to wait 6 months for those results.  My reasoning's for this:

1. I have had 2 healthy babies one just happened to be born early.
2.  If karyotyping shows some sort of translocation or other problem we will not pursue IVF with PGD or donor eggs anyways.
3.  I am strong enough to take the risk of another miscarriage and this may sound awful but I would rather miscarry than wait 6 months and I would rather miscarry first trimester than second trimester.

So the plan is:

Going on Nuvaring as soon as hcg is <5
Get AF repeat Nuvaring
Have the SIS 
Cycle with next AF after the SIS

We discussed a few things of concern regarding my last four IUI cycles.  My starting dose will stay at 75 but if stimming is slow we will go up instead of staying the same.  Also DH's swimmers will get a short spin instead of a long one.  His motility seems to decrease the longer the boys are spun!

I will continue my metformin, Preg vit, Vitamin D and E.  I will take progesterone suppositories and aspirin in the 2ww and if I get pregnant up to 10 weeks for the prog anyways!  Dr M said these things won't necessarily help but they won't hurt things either.

He gave me a compliment. Basically that I was pretty reasonable and made good argument and was knowledgeable.

I am feeling Ok with the plan.   Of course I would rather not have to wait (probably till June) but oh well.  I am going to have to think of something to do for the next 2 months.  TTC/Loss has been consuming me.  I would love to lose a few pounds, maybe start a course, and maybe DH and I should get away for a couple nights.  Something else to focus on would be a good thing.