Blah kind of day

Feeling kind of blah.  I haven't done very well on the WW plan this week.  I am so disappointed in myself.  I am trying to stay within my allotted 29 daily points.  A couple days I have had to dip into my extra weekly allowance.  But I am pretty sure my weight is not down at all (I weigh myself each morning).  I guess it's time to up the anti.  I think I might try the Zumba Wii Fit thing.  I am the type of person that needs to see progress or become easily discouraged :(

I had a bad dream this week.  That I did get pregnant and had another loss (a later one).  I awoke with the definite feeling that I should be going for the cerclage should I become pregnant again. I know I've written about it before, that my gut tells me my cervix was damaged during B's birth and that is why G was born early and died.  I've struggled with what my doctors advised and what I feel.  I am SO afraid of making the wrong decision.  I think I have finally settled on listening to my gut and I hope that it's the right thing to do and that whatever happens good or bad I have the strength to accept the consequences of my decision.