I was anticipating Mother's day, we all knew it was coming. We've had plans in the works to do spa day, my sister, mom and myself. I posted on my FB page an appropriate Happy Mother's day to ALL women, mother's of living children, mother's of children in Heaven, women hoping to become mother's. I like every other mom on my list posted the birth weights of my children.
Brennan Frederick 7lbs 12oz
Gavin William 14oz
This morning I quickly checked my phone and read some messages. Then the tears started. I didn't really think this day would evoke that much emotion for me. I guess I was wrong. I am very lucky to have one living child, but that doesn't stop my missing my child living in Heaven. Had he not been born early, he would be turning 1 right about now. My life would be so VERY different. Today I probably would have headed out to church with my husband and two boys, there would be no tears.
Instead I am still sitting in bed, my eyes red from crying....but also thinking about the good things I need to be thankful for and convincing myself (again) that there is still hope for the future and possibly a Rainbow.
2 comments:
I'm right there with you today... I too thought I'd be alright with Mother's Day.
Sending hugs your way.
Happy Mother's Day to you. I hope that you were able to find a little bit of peace as the day went on. <3
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