Yet another day of the year we baby loss parents are really reminded of what we are missing in our lives. Just because we didn't get a chance to parent him doesn't mean he's not our son.
I posted a happy father's day message to my DH on FB on behalf of both boys and changed my profile picture to one of him with Gavin. He also scrolled through my news feed and happened on a friends blog link which he followed. It's a blog of a family that lost their 4 month old son/brother to SIDS last year.
Next thing you know I look over and DH has tears coming from his eyes. He blamed FB.
We talked a little about it later. He asked what happened and I explained briefly. Then he asked me the million dollar question....why? Why does God allow these things to happen? I don't have the answers. All I can say is that God doesn't want us to hurt, he doesn't want stuff like this to happen to people. It does and we don't know the reasoning behind it all....not now anyways. We can't be afraid to try again. We can't live our lives in fear of being completely devastated again. I fully admit to being a worry wart but that doesn't stop me from trying....from living.
An interesting morning for us another holiday with a few tears.
Happy Father's Day to all the dad's out there, whether your children are hear in person or in spirit. Special mention for my dear friends who pass another year without their Dad I know this day is tough for you too.
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