Depressed

I've been feeling pretty depressed this week. I've been spending too much time watching sappy you tube memorial videos...and my own videos. Not sure why exactly I do this. It always makes me cry...but I guess sometimes I need to cry. My mood is bad and temper has been very very short. This is proving to be problematic in terms of the preschooler and the husband and I immediately feel bad but I can't get myself out of this down feeling :( my husband is working long hours and I feel pretty much alone. I have a baby shower to go to tomorrow. Yeah me. Brave face time....pretend to be happy for the neighbour who concieved first cycle off BC and was planning this shower before she even got that bfp....barf. I can not wait for her to be done being pregnant. This weeks training session wasn't so bad. My but hurt a bit but I could walk and do stairs with no problem so it was 100% better than last week.