So DH is studying. I am so bored. Bored of everything. Having issues about going out. Where do I go? Have to take B....I really don't have the desire/energy to chase after him and handle the 2 year old tantrums on my own. What does this equal....Mom is bored, B is antsy and wants to go out and DH is not getting much studying done as he needs perfect quiet to be able to concentrate.
It's deceivingly nice out. Sun is shining, but it's cold....yuk....not that we have a yard or anything yet.
I've still be torturing myself visiting the May 2010 due date board on FF. They are getting so close now. In one way I am relieved, in another I am insanely jealous. I have a feeling that once they are done giving birth and start talking about sore nipples, and colicky babies I won't be so interested....I hope.
I see the bereavement counselor tomorrow feeling a little anxious about that. Talking to a professional stranger...I dunno...it's a first for me so I don't even know what to expect I suppose that is where the anxiousness comes in.
I've been staring at the calender lately looking at the dates and potential due dates based on when I could possibly cycle. Looks like maybe Feb 2011 would be the first possible EDD for me. Then I start thinking about cycling and if it will work. How many tries will it take. Just because it worked quickly last time doesn't mean it will now. What if I have a BFP then a miscarriage. Getting through those early weeks will be torture. Can't I just wake up and be 20 weeks pregnant??
Today I should have been 34 weeks pregnant. Would be so close.
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