I am feeling in a bit of a pessimistic mood today. That tends to happen a lot. I get very down about things in my life. Nothing bad has happened but I guess it's that I am worried and when I worry all I see is bad.
I am due to have a follicle scan tomorrow morning. I am hoping for a "normal" response. Today at work cd 7 I began to feel slightly nauseated, a slight headache, and that frequent urge to pee. These are the very same symptoms I had last cycle on day 9 the day after my normal follicle scan. I really hope I am reading more into these symptoms then I should be.
Tomorrow will tell.
Since getting Dr. Haney's message I have been thinking a lot about my cervix....I know that would sound very odd to the regular person. If I get pregnant I am strongly leaning towards a preventative cerclage, even if my Doctors don't agree.
I just don't think I could just sit around and watch and wait for the worst to happen. If I really do have minimal cervix at the external OS, can I take a chance of waiting until an emergent cerclage might be needed? I know preventative cerclage has risks including miscarriage. What to do? Risk a miscarriage at 13 weeks or a preterm birth later? Not much of a choice.
I find it really confusing that my doctors want to do the watch and wait where these doctors I have consulted via e-mail think I should definitely have a cerclage placed and that a TAC would be the absolute best option. I mean TAC's are normally reserved for women who have had a failed TVC or have little to no cervix. TAC's are serious business.....but I also know they are extremely effective....I know that having a TAC would more than likely get me to a term delivery. Unfortunately getting one would be very difficult I think. As terrible as this sounds I think I would have to have another pre-term birth before my doctors would even entertain the thought. I know there is 1 Doctor here in my city who has done/assisted with them in the past however he doesn't have the experience required to do the surgery himself and refers his patients out to doctors from Toronto, Vancouver and Montreal.
Here is a picture of a TAC from the SOGC
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I hate that they chose to "watch and wait", that is the attitude my Drs had when I was in the hospital with Harper. It just made me feel like I was sitting on a time bomb....waiting for something bad to happen before they would do anything. I wanted to say to them, "easy for you to watch and wait, it's not your life or your baby!"
I will give you some advice you gave me when we first 'met', be your own advocate! I know that our doctors have our best interests in mind, but it is your life and you need to do what will make you feel the best and have the best outcome. Thinking of you!
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