I wanted to come here an write a stream of expletives. Had I not given myself some time to decompress I probably would have. It's not really my style or how I want to even present myself. I will say I did spew a couple of not very lady like words and much more rolled around in my head.
I felt good yesterday. Maybe a little bit run down but no headache little to no nausea. I was very slightly hopeful that maybe just maybe the reduction of my dose of Puregon was working. I went to the hospital this morning feeling pretty nervous. Feeling ok but definitely feeling something on the left side.
Got my blood work done and headed to the clinic. It was cold this morning so I decided to take the mostly inside route. This involved walking through the new Women's hospital which includes a whole wall of glass that looks out onto the old women's centre and at the window of the room where I delivered and watch my sweet baby die. To top it all off they attached this ugly piece of "art" right where that room is. A birds nest....ok...so that wasn't such a great start to my morning.
Ok onto the actual appointment. NO GO cancelled AGAIN!!!!!!! I still have those 4 leads, all are mature. 2 more that are close to maturity and "several" smaller ones. If I trigger they are concerned I will get OHSS with the number of small follies I have.
The only ray of hope is that DR S did see some free fluid and this means I could be getting ready to surge on my own. This time the DR said DH and I could DTD if I surge on my own.
I did ask about a conversion to IVF and DR S consulted with DR M. He said it wouldn't be worth the $$ if we only got 4 eggs. SIGH.....
I am so freaking angry.
I am waiting on the nurse to call with my LH numbers.
I just don't get it.
Dr S said next cycle we would start really low dose and have scans every 3 days from baseline. So....that means no more cycling until after my probationary period is over. I spoke with the nurse again about clomid. She told me to wait on AF and call for the RX.
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