Almost everything seems to irritate me. From DH mopping the main floor with the old (stinky) mop to the half dozen pregnant woman at the Walmart while we were doing our grocery shopping. It's amazing how those feelings of resentment always bubble up when I see pregnant women. I have to keep telling myself I don't know their situation and it's not right to feel that way. The grass isn't always greener right?
My new job is going well but I have big shoes to fill. The person I am replacing has been with the firm for 20+ years. She knows almost everything. I am glad that she will be with me for the next week. It's nice to have some overlap.
I did kind of tell a couple of the ladies yesterday about Gavin. But not the way I should have. I said "I lost a baby." I've talked about that in a previous post how people don't really understand when I say that....they assume something other than what occurred. I am sure as time goes by there will be chance to tell more about Gavin, my department is very small....so it's ok. I also worry about the fact that if they think I might be ttc they might not like that much. Of course employers want people that are going to stick around for the long haul, it costs money to advertise/hire/train all that....but then again I am still young so they must know it is a possibility right?
We are coming up to 7 months. 7 months since the worst day of my life. I think I can say I am doing OK. Sure I have moments of sadness, resentment, anger etc. but for the most part life is motoring on and I am coping well in this new normal....maybe I should ask DH his opinion?
3 comments:
I think you are doing well too.
It sounds like you are doing beautifully. I'm glad to hear that the new job is going OK.
I totally understand being irritated by pregnant women...happens to me all the time! It is just a brutal reminder. I hope that this week is a good one for you and as pp said, you are doing beautifully! :)
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