It's really hard to comprehend how 11 months have passed since Gavin died. I can't believe it is only one more month until his birthday. I think the day is going to arrive much sooner than I would like. I don't want to face that, especially considering my current ttc woes. I know that I can and will live through it, however I really don't want too.
The last month or so I have really noticed some regression in my sleep and mood. I usually wake up really early, then my mind wanders thinking about all the "stuff" that is going on, the alarm goes off and I wish I never had to leave my bed and think about how much I hate my current situation.
It's certainly not a very positive way to start the day.
I am mustering pretty much all I have left in me for positive thoughts for my scan tomorrow. If anyone has any spare ones send them my way :)
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