That infertility sucks big time. I am feeling particularly down today. I've seen several (6) BLM's announce pregnancies in the last couple of weeks. All of which have lapped me. Of course I am thrilled for those mom's but then of course I think "why not me?" "When will it be our time?" Of course dh and I are infertile/sub fertile on top of being baby loss parents. We expected fertility treatments to work quickly for us again, it was not to be....it's been cycle after cycle of appointments, shots, blood work, dildo cam visits, time off work....all for nothing..
The chances of my being pregnant this cycle are slim. Ovulation on cd 28, and poor sperm quality probably will not result in conception. I try so hard each and every day to find some hope. Hope that things will turn around for us....whether or not we ever have another baby or not. Today I just can't do it. I feel weighed down by this life.
I feel incredibly guilty because I do have one precious living child. He doesn't deserve this of his mother.
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{{HUGS}}
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