Well onward into my second year without my son. Yesterday was actually not bad. Our neighbor brought us a nice diner. I got a lot of comments here, on my mommy boards, and on FB. To know that people were thinking of us on a painful day it really does help make me feel better.
Unfortunately there was one person who is a very important person in my life that I didn't hear from. My mother.
As a mother myself I have a hard time understanding. As a mother I am hardwired to take care of my children, to be there when they are hurting, to dry their tears, to tell them mommy loves them, will take care of them do anything for them. I would die for my children.
I don't care that I am 31 years old. It would have been nice to get something from my mom. Not anything material, some words to know she is thinking of us, that she knows we are hurting and that she's hurts too.
Of course I've read enough to know the reasons why people don't talk about death especially when it comes to babies. But it still hurts, that was what I was most sad about yesterday.
1 comment:
I'm sorry, Glo. I'm 41 and it still makes me really sad when my mom isn't there for me, so I can imagine how hurtful it is to you that your mom didn't acknowledge this important anniversary. Hugs.
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