I think I am about to give up on this cycle. CD 24 no O and it's not looking promising I'd rather not have to deal with the clinic in 10 days so I picked up a Nuvaring at the pharmacy. I'll end this myself when I am ready.
I'm feeling pretty down....not even just about this cycle because my hopes were not all that high anyways. Just in general. I feel the weight of the world pressing down on my shoulders. I am hoping and praying for some of that weight to be lifted....or even a sign that there are better days to come...but that hasn't happened yet. It's hard to stay positive. (Sorry readers....this is the only place I can be negative).
Dh and I were talking on the way home. I told him I wished I could just know if another pregnancy is in our future. If it's not then I would stop fertility treatments completely. Focus on changing my life in other ways....but for now were are in limbo land. I guess there will only be a certain number of tries left...limbo will eventually be over....it's just been a long long time.
One of my friends who's been through quite the IF journey found out she will be miscarrying. Please send out some prayers for her and her Husband. Her faith is great but no matter how strong ones faith it still hurts.
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Sorry your body won't cooperate yet again. I wish I could know if we will be able to have another child too. Being stuck in limbo is awful and I understand you just wanting to know one way or the other.
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