Well the first day back was okish. My co-workers are good. They seem very sensitive to my feelings. It's my direct boss that is the insensitive one. Can you believe she asked "how was your time off?" um not good. Then she said well it must have been nice to spend all that time with B. um ok yeah we were together but it's not like I was on vacation. I was not able to make the most of my time with B. It's pretty damn hard when your withdrawn and feeling incredibly sorry for yourself.
Then today the second shoe dropped. My entire working world is about to change. My job is being almost completely redefined/restructured. So much for something familiar. The thing is the changes are not anything I consider to be good and in fact I was/am insulted. If I didn't have plans to ttc ASAP I would be looking for a new job.
I barely made it home without crying.
I did have one good thing today, even though it did make me cry....it was still a good thing. There is a very special group of ladies located all over this world. We've been "talking" online for the past three years since we all conceived our November 07 babies. These amazing ladies came together to send me a couple somethings for me.....for Gavin...I don't know how I can even thank them enough.
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I'm really sorry. That's an awful couple of days.
Sending hugs and prayers.
That is horrible that your boss was that insensitive! I can only imagine how hard it was not to tell her exactly how you felt at her comment! So rude. I hope you get your rainbow baby soon so you can get out of there.
I love the memory box though, very beautiful and so nice of them to send it. It's always nice to feel the love from all over the world. Hugz.
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