May Day

Well it's here. The month Gavin was supposed to arrive.

I was talking to someone at work the other day. She is counting down the days to the day her husband arrives home from Afghanistan. He was due to arrive on the 23rd at the time (has been changed now). I told her I know very well how many days it is till the 23rd. It is seared into my mind as the 23rd has it's own meaning for me.

I don't necessarily think the 23rd will be any more emotional then any other day this month. It will be the day I can stop counting down and that is probably a good thing.

The plan is to cycle this month. I am trying to prepare myself for a BFN....just in case. I don't want to go in over confident and then have a huge letdown. I keep telling myself just because we had good success before doesn't mean it will work so quickly and well this time. Even if I get a BFP there is still a chance of early loss.

Ideally we could get pregnant with a healthy baby in one cycle. I have real issues paying $1000+ for medication and IUI per cycle. I know that others pay much more especially those doing IVF but that money could for sure go to other things....like our landscaping ;)

In work news....two people quit this week....happy people don't quit. Boss was away Friday people were a lot more relaxed.....go figure.