Almost a year ago when before we intended to start trying for another baby I joined my local VBAC group. I was bound and determined to have a much different birth experience than what I had with B. I attended the monthly meetings, joined the yahoo group where I get email updates.
When I got pregnant with Gavin I still hadn't made my final choice to try for a TOL or not. But at my 20 week appointment my OB said that he would give me the choice even though he didn't recommend a TOL.
A few days later I got my VBAC, although not under the circumstances I would have wanted. The outcome far more traumatic than B's birth.
I am still getting the email updates from the VBAC group. I need to get that stopped.
If and when I have another pregnancy I have absolutely no desire to labour.....I never want to labour ever again. Getting to a c-section date will mean full term, and hopefully life. VBAC equals premature birth....and death .
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I'm so sorry you lost your sweet baby. It's a horrible thing to go through no one should ever have to lose a baby. I know you are grieving the loss of your child and the loss of the birth you had hoped for. I don't want to minimize your feelings in the least. But each pregnancy is different, each birth is different. It feels like a c-section might guarantee a healthy baby, but nothing can do that. Give yourself some time to heal, talk to your VBAC group (is it ICAN? ican-online.org ) Know that you are not alone, and that there are hundreds of women out here who understand, or at the very least feel great sympathy for you. Sending you healing vibes and love.
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