He must really be sick

I have been blessed to have a child who normally sleeps through the night. I can't remember the last time he cried out after going to bed. Last night he cried out twice. The first time I was still up (staying up WAY to late these days) the second time I was woken from sleep.

I am kind of cheesed but I suppose it's to be expected. I sent him to ladies morning out last week with my mother. It gives him a chance to play with other incubators.....sorry children. Of course he brings home a stupid cold. The inevitable happens, he passes it to mommy. I am not impressed. We were just sick the week between Christmas and New Years. The only difference now is I plan to take whatever cold meds I can get my hands on. No need to suffer this time, no Gavin to protect.

I had to stop into Wal Mart last night to pick up a few things, much easier to do by myself. Our Wal Mart is normally very quiet as it was last night....ssshhh....don't tell anyone, I love a quiet Wal Mart. Of course I run into someone I know.....honestly I am NOT a social butterfly so come on I HAD to meet someone!?!?

It was someone from church, D (of course!). We were once in the same small group for "Young Marrieds" I don't see much of her or her husband J anymore and of course I haven't been to church in a while. But I knew my mother told her of our pregnancy. So when D asked me how things were.....I thought for a second and decided to just tell her the truth since I am obviously not pregnant anymore.... so i said things sucks thanks. I am currently on leave, I lost the baby. I got the "cringe" and I am so sorry. Exchanged some other "pleasantries" and went on my way.

I don't really expect anyone to understand really, or feel comfortable by my bluntness. D & J who are younger than myself have chosen to live a child free life. I honestly don't know why they made this decision but it is something they have known since before they were even married, so i can probably hazard to say it has nothing to do with infertility or anything....it was just a lifestyle choice. But if you can't imagine yourself with children at all, imagining losing one might be totally beyond your comprehension.

Still waiting to hear back from Dr. M's office. It used to be 1-2 working days for a call back (non urgent), now it's 3-4. Not that it's urgent or anything I just hate waiting, anticipating a phone call.

I emailed the hr people and payroll about my coming back to work. The only response was from the payroll lady who is looking forward to having me back (and she is in Regina). Yeah NOT impressed at all with HR. If I wasn't going back to hopefully take advantage of the maternity top up (again) I would seriously be thinking of looking for something else.