I had my "make-over." It was PURE TORTURE!! Now I know why I don't do that all the time. My poor scalp is burning from the chemicals, from the de-tangling process, and from the blow drying plus my backside is sore from sitting for 3 hours. OUCHY.
The results....well pretty good.
How much did I spend....way TOO much!!!
Today for the first time since Gavin left I faced the question of "How many children do you have?" I answered it twice in two different ways....kept it simple....and I didn't cry...whew...
I've been in contact with a woman who lives pretty close by who's loss story sounds very close to mine. The most important fact being she has been dx with IC after losing her second pregnancy. Her first was full term, baby delivered via c-section. Do you see?? It does happen. Crap happens during l & d that can affect a subsequent pregnancy.
I really feel in my heart that IC played a factor in losing Gavin. I am desperately afraid that when/if I conceive again that even with serial u/s to check cervical length I could lose another baby. Cerclage is dangerous at any point, but obviously a preventative one is better than an urgent one which is better than an emergency one.
Sigh...why can't this be easy? From conception to birth this will not be an easy carefree journey.
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No it won't be easy, but it is possible. I offer up my story as proof of that. All too well I remember the fear of staring down the months of anxiety and stress and wondering if it would all be for nothing. I just want you to know that it is possible.
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