Don't Feel Like It.

I am feeling rather depressed today.  It's the first time really since the news that our Rainbow didn't make it.   I am in one of those moods where I don't feel like anything (except maybe chocolate).  I don't feel like getting out of bed, or going out, or doing things that I once enjoyed.  Some things, even simple things like taking Brennan to the store (even with DH) seem completely overwhelming and I really don't want to do it.

I think part of my mood stems from having to go back to work tomorrow.  I had a call on the answering machine from my dad wondering if I was feeling well enough to go back to work tomorrow.  Ah I was only written off till tomorrow (they know that) and well physically I am fine.  I know you all have enjoyed your vacation.  So sorry it had to end!  I am not looking forward to wading through 7 business days of email when I get in.  Probably only a small percentage actually pertain to me or my job.

I really wish spring would come.  I see all kinds of FB posts about nice weather in other area's of the world.  Unfortunately we are still suck in winter mode here.  Well the temperatures are not frigid it's still cold, lots of snow and overcast sky's :(

I am almost looking forward to my post op.  I have fairly quickly gone from the "never wanting to try again" to "when can we try again?"  I will say that this morning I awoke to the feeling that it will happen again and fairly quickly this time.  Of course I was hoping for quickly last time and it took forever.  Hopefully my intuition is a little better this time.

Will be picking up the old thermometer again tomorrow.  Now that the bleeding has stopped and I will be getting up on a regular schedule.  Might as well see what's going on with the old body.  I did ovulate on my own after my first missed miscarriage.  It could happen again.  "They" say your more fertile after being pregnant.