Spring

Spring has finally arrived in E-town. Yes there is still snow everywhere but it's melting and the sun is shining.  It is warm enough to be outside for more than a few minutes.

I wanted to try and uncover a few of my plants that are under a ton of snow so I got the shovel out and one for Brennan.  We spent maybe 1/2 hour outside.  Brennan really enjoyed it, especially after being stuck in so much.

I got to thinking that this should be making me happy.  Generally the arrival of spring and warmer weather makes me feel a bit happier (this is probably true for most people).  This will be my second spring of not having enough in me to even enjoy the little things in life.

It would be much more enjoyable if our little Rainbow was still with us.

Yesterday my co-worker was back.  She read an email that I sent to her and our boss about my post-op appointment next week.  She didn't understand the term "post-op"  she was a little confused, I was a little confused.  A bit later we were talking about surgery and I mentioned that I too had my surgery at the same place as co-workers MIL.  Then everybody clued in as to why I had been gone.  Not the d & c part but that I had surgery and needed time to recover.  I did end up telling my 1 co-worker about the d & c and she reacted with sympathy.  Tried to tell me the feel good story of the neighbor who had 5 miscarriages then a healthy baby. It's great and all but it really doesn't make me feel any better about my own situation.  I am finding us to be in a very small segment of people, the infertile/loss group.  I don't think there is anyone in my daily life that I can really relate too.  It's very isolating.  Thank goodness for blogger world.